The team and I have just come back from a two month break of District Leadership Camps. During those months the Summit training in Washington D.C. and Oregon State Fair kept us busy. Now is our time to jump back into camps with excitement., But honestly, I noticed doubt was starting to creep in. I was worried I wasn’t going to perform my best because I hadn’t facilitated for a while. This feeling was scary because I don’t like the thought of letting people down. But what if I mess something up? What if I say or do the wrong thing? How can I make sure it’s perfect?
I start calling friends and mentors asking them what I should do about this feeling of doubt. I received the responses of “Do your best,”, “Build connections,” and “Be there for the members.” While these are all important and truthful things, I felt like my question of “How?” wasn’t answered.
I didn’t feel like it was answered until the night before camp. During my usual pre-bedtime routine of brushing my teeth, Bible study, and praying, I called my mom. After a few minutes of conversation she could tell something was off. My mom asked me about it so I told her what’s on my mind. I once again got the response of “Do your best!” Then it hit me. This phrase was so common growing up that I didn’t reflect on what it really meant.
With a new perspective, the Umpqua District Leadership Camp begins! Mr. Crawford, the District Advisor, starts camp by giving the team a quick rundown and the expectations. While this was still intimidating and I was still nervous, I was here to give it my all. Through the next three days I gave it my all in the workshops, games, and every moment I had with FFA members.
Looking back today, I see areas that I can grow and improve, but knowing I gave it my all is what is important. Now, I get to give it all at my next camp while implementing feedback that I’ve received.
What areas of your life do you need to focus less on being perfect and more on doing your best? This will take that doubt and turn it into confidence. If I had been more focused on being perfect, I would’ve missed meaningful moments with members. Instead I was able to embrace them and live in the moment.
~Taft Rice
State Sentinel
